I can only be me

I know I’m stubborn
sometimes fey
and that sometimes
I just don’t know what to say

I’m not without faults
neither am I comely
not nice and trim
looking at myself
I feel ready for the recycle bin

I try so hard, try in vain
try to deal with my inner pain
to be myself and true
try to see each day as new

but can I be what you want?
what you really want to see?
can I be what you desire?

alas I can only be me